"He... he loves me." Tears, hot and intrusive pricked the backs of his eyelids as he drew in a deep breath.
It wasn't something that he could accept. part of him wanted to believe that J'tomo was doing this just to get at him-- to get back at him for how he'd acted while under their foster-father's tutelage. Another man who he hadn't been able to bring himself to see.
"This is. All well and good. But if you haven't forgotten, we've a mystery and greater problem to speak of." His voice was tight around the lump in his throat, his shoulders burdened with the absolute despair crushing him.
He had considered dying more than once, aye-- but he was lucky to be given the small sparks that kept him going. He could atone with whatever life was left in his bones. He could protect instead of kill. He could sacrifice all, just as the Warriors of Light were willing to.
The knowledge brought him no peace. It only renewed his anguish, reminded him of everything that hurt so deeply. Aymeric. Aymeric deserved better.
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Date: 2019-07-23 02:03 pm (UTC)It wasn't something that he could accept. part of him wanted to believe that J'tomo was doing this just to get at him-- to get back at him for how he'd acted while under their foster-father's tutelage. Another man who he hadn't been able to bring himself to see.
"This is. All well and good. But if you haven't forgotten, we've a mystery and greater problem to speak of." His voice was tight around the lump in his throat, his shoulders burdened with the absolute despair crushing him.
He had considered dying more than once, aye-- but he was lucky to be given the small sparks that kept him going. He could atone with whatever life was left in his bones. He could protect instead of kill. He could sacrifice all, just as the Warriors of Light were willing to.
The knowledge brought him no peace. It only renewed his anguish, reminded him of everything that hurt so deeply. Aymeric. Aymeric deserved better.